i feel like killing myself
ive been feeling guilty cause i left sm1 who destroyed me
cause i thot i'm leavin sm1 alone
hw d hell was i upposed to knw
dat he doesnt evn care....
i feel like ive been messed up .........
ive been ignoring d one person who really cares fr such a pathetic excuse of a man
hw idiotic cn i b??????????????????
so totally fucked up
grrrrrrr
cn i kill me???????????

yash.........

it seems just like yesterday........almost lyk a fresh memory
a memory dat tears me into a thousan scraps......
i still remember d sound of your voice........ i used to go mad thinkin hw much i wanna hear ur voice fr my whole life
even though u were far....
yet i cud feel u everywhere arnd me.........
i wanted u to be so much to me.....
cant frgt d way we bth used to b happy just to find ourselves wid each oder
mayb dat was our undoing.......................

hw i wish things hadnt gine d way dey went......

its impossible to imagine hw it felt nt giving u a second chance........... it was lyk depriving me of d vry source of my life
suffocating.....
bt wht was more painful was to admit i nvr mattered......mayb u just vr wid me to proove a point???? to ur past
i was all u had.........ur best frnd
bt mayb it was always till dat........ n nothing else

everyday felt lyk living in d shadow of sm1 who destroyed me by destroying u

its still so easy fr ne1 to come btwn us...........so damn easy
dat i hv questioned myself over d sanctity of our past relation a million tymes
so easy fr u to tell every1 else a justification to proove wht????
so easy to say ill wait frvr
n d vry nxt 5 minutes to say im engaged



technically it shudnt hurt cause im d one who left u
n yet i knw better........... of wht i really left..........
n all dat was left btwn us

i hope u spend a wonderful life wid ur fiance

best wishes to ya